I've spent a lot of time over the past three months pondering our decision to move, and whether or not it was the right choice. We possibly picked the WORST time in 20 years to sell our house, and Jeff finding a job in banking is not going to be any piece of cake either. But even though things aren't falling as quickly into place as we'd hoped, somehow I still have this unwavering peace in my heart that MS is where God is leading us. Don't get me wrong, leaving our life here is not going to be easy. You can expect many tears between now and the end of the month, so just get ready. But aside from the normal fears about starting a new job, I'm surprisingly calm about the whole ordeal, which is very unusual for me.
It all started about a year ago, when we both started to experience this growing desire to be closer to family - a far cry from the "We're never moving anywhere close to MS or LA" motto we had a few years ago. So we decided we'd move after 5 years in the house, which would have been 2010. Makes much more sense, right? But that never really felt like a good plan to us, and earlier this year, while dining with some of our wise friends and mentors, they posed the simple question "Why are you waiting to move to MS if you know it's where you want to be?" Well we couldn't stop thinking about that question, and why they posed it. And WHY DID THEY, for crying out loud. It's one of the worst times in the century to move and find a job, aside from the Great Depression of course. But again we couldn't stop thinking about it, and once we started down that path we knew there was no going back. Then I got a job offer, and our minds were made up. MS here we come!! Yes, I'd feel a whole lot better if the house were sold or if Jeff had a job, but my parents have generously opened their home to us, so at least we don't have to worry about 2 house payments. It will all work out, I have complete faith of that. It just may not be how we'd envisioned it ourselves.
Looking back on our 5 years in Atlanta - I'm really pretty ambivalent about the city. It's hot as
#@$$ here and the traffic is just as bad as they portray it. My daily commute is 45 minutes one way - typically an hour. That currently amounts to $80 a week in gas for the Volvo. Ouch. I do love where we live, but I've come to the conclusion that I'm just not really a city person. I love visiting the city, but I don't like spending a lot of money on food our entertainment, so that pretty much rules out most of Atlanta's activities. Give me a fun-filled evening at home with friends anytime. And oh our wonderful friends here - that's what's going to kill me to leave. When we first moved to Atlanta, we befriended 5 of the most amazing couples in our newlywed Sunday School Class that we've somehow managed to keep around for the past 5 years. These people know pretty much everything about us, and still love us anyway, which is pretty amazing if you know our story. For the past 5 years we've really done marriage together. And through these 5 couples we've met some other amazing couples that have just made our time here oh so fulfilling. We've also been blessed with great coworkers that are really great friends too, and some of the most amazing neighbors you could ask for. We are so blessed. And why are we leaving you ask?? Good question! Granted I do have some dear, dear college friends in MS that I can't wait to start hanging out with again, and Jeff has connected with some old college buddies in Jackson as well, but it will be a completely different experience because all of these people knew us before we were married. When we moved to Atlanta we knew no one, save my grandparents and their 70+ year old friends, so everyone who knows us here knows us as The Smith Couple, not just Courtney and Jeff who got married. And like I mentioned before many of these people know more about us than our families - all the blood, sweat and tears that come with trying to make a marriage work. I'll be perfectly honest in saying that I'm really nervous about moving back to a place where people don't know us as well as they think. I know God is going to use our marriage, and our testimony, in a great way in MS, but it's scary thinking about that right now. There is a certain level of vulnerability that comes with transparency, and we've been very lucky that we've been so graciously accepted, loved and not judged by our friends here. I hope there is never a day when our candidness pushes someone to say we don't want anything to do with you anymore, but I guess there's always that risk, even here. It just seems like much more of a possibility as we move out of our comfort zone.
Moving to Atlanta, away from everything and everyone we held dear, was possibly the best decision we ever made as a couple (even though the whole reason we moved never played out - to attend law school). For anyone out there thinking about getting married, I would highly recommend getting a few years under your belt in a new city where you really have to rely on God and the people you meet TOGETHER to get you through things. I don't think we'd be together today if we hadn't ended up here.
Ok enough of the sappiness for today. Since I haven't posted in weeks, here is a brief summary of what we've been up to.
#1 the house - surprise surprise. But the even bigger surprise is that we are finished - save just keeping things clean. We finished up a few porch final touches 2weeks ago.
Jeff hanging the final straps in the rafters (The brown metal pieces).
He also put a sharp looking toe board around the baseboard that matches the swing, and I finally got the grout on the tile sealed.
The first weekend of August was perhaps the busiest one we've had in years. Friday night we enjoyed a delicious meal and fun filled evening with friends Amy, Michael and Bryce. Amy always says she can't cook, but we've yet to have anything less than delicious at their place.
Saturday morning I had the pleasure of hosting a shower for my friend Lisa, wife of my friend and coworker Josh, in honor of the baby girl Lindsey they are expecting in October. It was a very fun girly morning.
Saturday afternoon we worked like madmen to get our house ready for our 1st open house Sunday, knowing we wouldn't have time to work on it that evening or much the next morning
Saturday night my boss hosted a lovely dinner at her house for myself and Jeff, my coworker Nancy and Lynzee (a coworker and honorary member of the Quality department) and her husband Alex. Sue, my boss, is quite the host, and she served more food than I've ever seen - all in honor of me and Jeff. It was a very special evening that I will never forget. I do love my coworkers!!
We didn't get home until after midnight from the dinner, and opted to go to bed and get up early Sunday morning to frantically clean for the open house. As usual, we didn't get up early enough, and barely made it to Dunwoody Baptist in time for Caroline's baby dedication. We were 10 minutes late, walked in during meet and greet, then sat down and she was dedicated. Whew - I would not have forgiven myself if we had missed it! God was certainly watching over us because I didn't get a ticket for driving 75mph down Roswell Road to get there, and normally the baby dedication is 1st on the agenda, but because of a baptism it was pushed back a little. And as an aside, it was a great sermon too - just what we needed to hear. Just as I was sitting there, looking at many of my friends gathered in one place and feeling sorry for myself because none of them would be with us for our baby dedications, the speaker got up and did an entire sermon on moving to Italy. And not just any move, he is a lawyer, his wife is a nurse practitioner, and in 2 weeks now they will be leaving everything and everyone they love and taking their 4 month old daughter they prayed for for 4 years with them to Italy to work with a ministry they feel God is leading them in to. So you see, our little move to MS to be closer to family seems very easy compared to what they will be facing in the next 6 months. Like I said, it was a great sermon and definitely gave me some good perspective on our situation.
And here I am with Madeline at the church. Me and her mom are the best of friends, and often meet for breakfast on Saturdays when Jeff works, but Madeline has been pretty ambivalent about me until lately.
We spent most of Sunday afternoon at the Trices, celebrating Caroline, but headed back to our place for dinner with our old neighbors, Jenny and Jason, that evening after our open house ended. Like I said, it was a very busy weekend.
This past weekend was our first free one in months, and I'll have to say we were a little at lost as to what to do with it. We ended up hiking Stone Mountain and enjoying the lasershow with our friend Karen Saturday, then had my grandparents and friends the McVickers over Sunday night for dinner.